Aug 7, 2012

A finite view of miscarriage

On July 14th a pregnancy test read positive.  On July 30th an ultrasound offered a glimpse of what was our second child.  On August 1st a blood test proved we would never hold our baby on this side of paradise.

In what has proved to be the most difficult summer of my life, God is clearly propping me up as I lean into Him with every new hardship.  I trust Him.  I do not need a reason for what has happened because He is I AM.  I AM is all I need.

...Kleenex, waterproof mascara, and my husband are extremely helpful, too.  We are mourning the loss of our child, whom we named Asthore Wilmod (dearly loved, resolute spirit).  Yet we find joy in God's promises.

        He will swallow up death forever;
    and the Lord GOD will wipe away tears from all faces,
        and the reproach of his people he will take away from all the earth,
        for the LORD has spoken.
    It will be said on that day,
        “Behold, this is our God; we have waited for him, that he might save us.
        This is the LORD; we have waited for him;
        let us be glad and rejoice in his salvation.”
(Isaiah 25:8-9 ESV)