Let go. Why do you hold on so tightly to what was never your own? Why do you play the victim in a scene you designed? Why do you question intentions based upon your immediate emotion rather than attempting to understand? Why do you seek for what you know you shall never find?
Is loss too hard to swallow? Is failure too bitter? They are the products of life as a fallen being. The taste of them is inescapable yet never without benefit.
Grasp the lesson so dearly learned. Stand up and continue on the grand adventure. Live. Thrive! And allow the past to remain so.